Apology and Update

First of all, it’s been weighing on my mind for a few days now…but I’m sorry to whomever it was who called 5-O on me. No, I wasn’t suicidal. May I drop dead if I’m lying.

Yeah, I’m still quite peeved about it. But I shouldn’t have said you’re worthless. Everyone has worth, of course. I was just mad. I’m still angry, but not seeing crimson. Most likely, you meant well. Still, would it have killed either of us to have maybe texted me or called. You know I wouldn’t have got nasty about it. I’d have been polite. But anyway, I wish you well.

In other news, I have been filming stuff. Nothing ingenue; it’s all been done before ad nauseum, but I figure why not? Gives me something to do, and if it entertains somebody, it can’t be too bad.

I’ve started transcribing for the Smithsonian. They’ll let any idiot volunteer for that. It may not be a lifesaving thing, but maybe it’ll help someone someday. Ho hum. I’m taking a course on Futurelearn.com on forensic anthropology just because it was free and sounds interesting. I am going to write that post/ article on food stamps. I am trying to live as much as I can, and if I can’t find much adulation in the real world, maybe I can find it online. Love me, my adoring public, because I’m uber fabulous!

Aldi Grocery Haul: Now with Cat


As you can see, I have made yet another thrilling Youtube video, and if you have 6 minutes of your life that you don’t mind not getting back, give it a watch. I’m up to 13 subscribers. Will you be number 14? It might not be as exciting as MAGA Smirk Boy, but not many things are.
































Watch “Roses Discount Department Store Haul” on YouTube

I actually recorded this a week ago too, but just got it up. This one is a little better than my last trashy store haul. I edited it with Filmora Go instead of Inshot.

In other news, I’m writing a post/article about Food Stamps. Once it’s done, I’ll either throw it up here, or if I feel lucky, I might try submitting it somewhere online. I’m honestly not sure how it’s going to turn out. I’m just writing a lot of crap in a notebook for now. Wish me luck.

My Depression, OCD Vlog

I recorded this video about 5 days ago, but didn’t get it uploaded until yesterday.. I had to edit out part of my face, because I realized to my horror I had some chocolate  on my face!

In epilogue to the video, I was on the phone with a friend last night and she told me about someone who passed away recently. My friend told her about something I had done and the dying woman laughed hysterically. Less than 24 hours later, she left this world. So, at least I know that somewhere I sort of eased someone’s suffering for a minute. That actually makes me happy.

The Holidays

I didn’t even know they did this anymore, Poetry Rallies. I haven’t wrote a poem in years. Maybe 2011? Be afraid. Be very afraid. In fact, if you think this is really bad, tell me, please!


Back before everyone died;

Mama made turkey breast, boiled then baked.

Stuffing made of sausage and cornbread.

Cranberry sauce fresh from the can.

Discord from Grandma; Grandpa can’t see his plate.

New gifts and wrapping paper on the floor.

A feeling of home I don’t have anymore.

Now I go out to eat.